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Fairy Princess
Alex Hinders, 2012.
Colored pencil and pen.

This drawing represents a character from an old role-playing game. This game stuck out to me because usually RPGs are about a group of misfits who band together to save the world — this was a game about a bunch of people with questions, so they banded together to search for God. Most of the characters felt that either their way of life was wrong, or that their own existence was ‘wrong’, or unnatural. When you finally came across the entity that claimed to be the Goddess of that world you were actually given the choice of agreeing that your main character was an aberration, or challenge her and say that the hero was fine the way he was.

If you chose the first option, the Goddess demanded that the hero stay with her in her garden and live forever in isolation from the world. You watched a short montage of your character getting older, and then were shown a “The End” screen and the credits rolled. It was what the video game playing crowd refers to as a ‘bad ending’. If you chose the second option, and survived the ensuing boss fight, your character was free to live life as he wanted.
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I didn’t really realize why this came out of my mind until I started writing this post about this drawing. I really feel like I’ve experienced a similar quest in my lifetime — with perhaps organized religion or societal expectations standing in place for a faux-God. Before I decided that I had to go down the path in life that I’m currently on, I was actually haunted by vision of myself getting a little colder and a little bitter every year — in the end all I saw was a cold dark monster that didn’t resemble me. I decided that such a path would be the “Bad Ending” of my life and decided that I should go down the other road — the one to set myself free.

The Fairy Princess herself ends up being the first true advocate for the main character, and through-out the course of the game her faith in him never wavers. I suppose the Fairy Princess in this drawing represents the part of me I stifled; the part that knew what was the right thing to do all along.

I was pretty young when I played that game, so some of its philosophical nature might actually be weaker than I remember. A few years ago I was able to get a pristine copy of the game but I’ve been terrified of playing it — what if my adult mind finds it shallow? Maybe I’ll get around to re-playing it one of these days.

On a side note, this drawing is part of a trilogy including Winter Grey and Casting Spells.

Winter Grey
Alex Hinders, 2012.
Colored pencil and pen.

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If you’ve spent more than few moments looking at my art you’ve probably realized that color is something important to me. It enhances my enjoyment of life, and it’s often needed to express myself in visual art. So to be deprived of color is a horrendous thing to me. I remember having to work with charcoal in that art class I took in class — I really couldn’t emotionally connect with what I was trying to draw, at all. It was all lifeless. Even when the lights and shadows were ‘dynamic’, the picture depicted was often just a lifeless world to me.

I also noticed that the second to last entries in both the Heroine and the Wizard used a lot of black, white, and grey. The Wizard was being confronted with a dark and dreadful battle against the Warlock, and so the land around him lost color; The Heroine was left with somber thoughts about how she’ll be remembered — her world was bleak and the brightly colored mis-told tales mocked her. When things get dark or intense in the world of my art, the color tends to get muted or fade away. Sort of like the real-world during the winter time, when I battle with The Winter.

One final note: This drawing was done on a slightly larger and higher quality piece of paper. It’s part of a trilogy, along with Casting Spells and Fairy Princess. (I’ll add a link to them once they’re uploaded.)